Lost

We are lost. Super smart superachievers become doctors lawyers and engineers because they know not what to do. THey are forced to enter the science stream. THe point is that we learn Bio Chem and Physics late that we have no time to get used to it. THat is why many suck at those. If we learnt them at 23 like in the Us, we would know it is or is not for us. We would know which mature subjects we are ultimately suited for.
I thought at one time I should be an author. I felt repressed as I knew little about science. I was 15 then. Only at Form 4 I began to appreciate the sciences.

THe best class is the worst, says my rebellious friend.
"It's evil," I explain.
"Don't degarde the name of evil," says my friend.

So what is evil? My friend loves Dracula and worships evil. I talk of blasting people with a waterpistol filled with concentrated nitric acid .

Is literature a science or art? Creative people are not necessarily good at lit. I know someone who can write stories but cannot complete lit essays. On the other hand, I am notorious for writin superlong essays but unable to express my words in a novel.
Is literature realted to biochemistry? I know a good writer who does the Life Sciences. I know the top lit srudents last year intends to do Biochemistry. I myself a lit student will do biochemistry.
Strange isn't it? then lit is a science. but why not physics? I suppose physcis is too mathematical whereas Chem and Bio is a WHOLE NEW WORLD. As a child I was most fascinated by chenical reactions. when I first learnt science it was mainly biology and not so mysterious.

We are still lost. no one knows what to do. I think very few people really want a career esp. those girls in my school. THey are pessured by society and circumstances to be career humans.

Now let us discuss why there are alrmingly few guys in the Science stream. Guys are really more scientifically minded. They can understand better. But those girls score well.

THe point is that eveyone eats too much meat and conducts too muc h intercourse. New scientist states that low levels of testosterone increases the chances of producing offspring who are scientific and potential engineers. I diisapprove of vegetarianism. but we must eat moderately. As a minor amateur scientist I DO care about the state of unscientific thought. Why does tech advance if few study the sciences? Because now only the true lovers of science study it in uni. Less competition hence more time to speculate invent etc. The best venture into this field. In te uK they pay scientists poorly. Even the salaries in New Scienist ads do not amount to more than 3000 pounds a month. I must be a martyr. I thought I was an artist but I am a man of science.
I study the science of literature.
Eating meat and screwing around is a typically human trait. Scientific ability is not - it is an evolution. It is not a part of the original species. For physical survival the former is performed. THat is why science is not popular as we all strive to become animals. Yes, AMIMALS. Is thi snot a rat race? I shall be wearing a gorilla costume to my friends Halloween party to prove that I am not a hypocrite and admit my animal characteristics.

emotionally we are lost. Are we all unconcscious homosexuals? I am rather inclined to think so. A schoolmate informed me that she pretended to be a Japanese man and several girls asked to be her friend on Friendster. If I pretend to be a woman, would my account by bombarded by men? I wrote a story about this. We appreciate certain things in the opposire gender that they d onot possess but we do. A girl understands what other girls feel. Hence we appreciate our own qualities in the other person who is pretending to be of the opposite gender. So we are really homosexual. People hve boyfriends and girlfriends due to pheronemones and survival. We are mentally and emotionally attracted to one of the same gender.

An impersonal friendship is beautiful. It hurts no one. And you probably learn a lot of things from this friend. Emotions are animalistic hence they are so common. But if we destroy emtion how would we spread propaganda?

Interview with Professor bingoffsky - A controversial topic

Interviewer:Dr. bingoffsky, may I ask you a few questions?
F.B.: Certainly. PLease ask only scandalous questions, as I am anxious to gain publicity by notoriety.
Q: OK. Why did you dedicate it to Freud, your mentor?
A: Oh, Freud inspired me withthe most scandlaous theories. If it were no for his theories, this poem would never be written. It really is a poem on theories , you know.
Q:What theories?
A: Oh, psychoanalytical, biolopgical ... it's complicated. What 's your nest question?
Q: Why did you choose the title Songs of the Cricket?
A: Oh, it's anm unconsious imitation of Sonnets from the Portuguese. But I'm glad yo noticed. It is about a cricket singing you know ...
Q:Why a cricket? not a person?
A:Oh, it sounds more decent to write about insects. Truly, in a cricket I could

Songs of the Cricket

Songs of the Cricket by Fyodor Bingoffsky, Ph.D. wannabe

To SIGMUND FREUD, my MENTOR (and, of course, George Bernard Shaw)

I
Tell me why the cricket sings.
The notes resound in nature's cries
To express the hesitant replies
When all awakened senses ring.

II
Tell me why the cricket sings.
When misty treads have thundred free
The knowing heart says: "I love thee!"

III
Tell me why the cricket sings.
An unsinkable euphoris shouts and flees
For the heart has found it is to be.

Iv
Tell me why the cricket sings.
Has joy unleashed from ancient ruins
The scribe's sweet art from shining moons?

V
What songs could emerge from invisible depths
When inspiration draws in every breath
As when the cricket begins to sing?

VI
Wherefore come these tremulous notes?
The sweet, unsounded keys have fluted forth
To revel in soul's renaissance rebirth.
vII
Tell me what could have inspired
THe cricket's fervent, undimmed fire:
Dare the tempestuous words rise and aspire
To heights revealing the hidden lyre?

VIII
Tell me why the cricket sings:
A bell of agony peals outright
When one winged being is far from sight.

IX
Tell me wny the cricke tsings
Two arrows did strike the fragile heart:
One, the passion felung by the babe on wings;
Two, the piercing, venom-tipped dart:
Drawing life, drawing blood.

X
Tell me why the violin shrieks:
Left solitary, the ungiven flames
Cannot expres, and music never came.

XI
Tell me why the violin shrieks:
Rusted to oblivion, the frosted heart
Feels none, the shrill notes ending bleak.

XII
Tell me why the violin wails:
Pain, for none have long drawn the string;
Never bestowed a life, never eternal being.

XIII
Ah, solitude! not enduring thee,
The cricket calls, melancholy,
In hope another shall come for he!

(signed)
Fyodor Bingoffskt
6th June 2008.

Well, here I am. We had an education fair in school and I'm resolved to go to Taylor's. WHOOPEE!!! In the Bioscience package, they have Chen, Bio, Math and English lit. Yay!!!

I am so sad because the person whom I based the villain of my now 30-page novel has turned out differently from what I had expected. In my novel, the villain thinks literature is dumb. ( he is very insensitive).

Then what happens is that my mother goes and tells me thei guy has gone and taken ENGLISH LIT. at A-LEVELS!!! I was so shattered and disillusioned.
I know I'm being selfish. But I hate being wrong.
The guy I refer to never took lit. for SPM., my mother pointed out. "And he enjoys it now." So it's like pointing out the so-called villain isn't so bad after all, he's superior to me, (having not the benefit of the foundations), and SENSITIVE. As though she is pointing me in his direction.

Frankly, I do not like her ideas of eugenics. she is annoyed every time I dicuss eugenics. I wonder why.

Oh, how maddening it all is! I attract people's attention with my written words, and not my person. I fact, I am biologically unsuitable. Oh, well, at least, when I die, I'll be glad that in my lifetime, I have drawn tears from many eys and soften hearts and evoke memories.

It is so weird. I am frightening in person. In the written word, some people have swooned. At this rate, I'll be able to hypnotise a good number of victims. Yay!

A literary reputation?

Nothing can beat this! First, one psychotic girl from my lit. class borrows my lit. paper. She returns it.
Yay! Then, my friend comes to me and asks if she can borrow it. I say OK.
I give her the test paper.
A few days later,
Me: Could you return it?"
Pal: OK, Sometimes this week.
Then back in class, a classmate says my pal got her to return it to me. Only Girl number 3 says:"can I borrow it?"
AAARRRGGHH!!!
I give my astounded assent.

Lalalalala...
during ed. board duty, one of the form 4's goes up to me and says,"Hey, Fyodor! How's lit?" We go on discussing lit, and the Form 4 goes:"out lit. teacher says you wrote like THREE PAGES for the ending of Naukar! That's so long!"
THREE PAGES???
"I only wrote one or two pages!" I protested. It consisted of the rickshaw-wallah dying and Julia Bannerjee attending his funeral. Damned unimaginative. But my lit. teacher is really appreciative of writing skills.
"That's so long!"
Oh, well. I certainly did not write THREE PAGES. I believe she said so becasue I normally write long essays for lit. and she assumed it was the same with Naukar. Or maye she exaggerated. Exaggerated incidents are more fun, anyway.
The next day, I went and asked my Form 4 pal, "What rumours has our teacher spread about me?"
"Oh, you write really long essays."
My essays tend to be idealistic and passionate and expressive. If possible. Or else, analytical.
My pal at add math tuition goes and discusses lit. with me. Apparently, said my pal said:"I showed my friend your test paper. Now my friend is ga-ga over you." And my mathematical friend goes and borrows my test paper!
It must be retribution on me for borrowing people's test papers last year. Judgement Day has come. Do what you expect others to do unto you. Oh, My God.

Traitors of the Science Stream

Now, if any of you readers turn out to be the sort of people I am going to describe, please let me inform you that we each have the freedom of speech. And anyway, I'm a society reformer wannabe, so I must complain. Nowadays, intellect isn't about what you do but what things you complain about. THat is because the intellectuals are being suppressed. I hope the ISA will smash to bits.

I'M TALKING ABOUT THESE FREAKING SUPER-ACHIEVING SCIENCE STREAM STUDENTS!!!

Yes. And not any ordinary science student, I mean those smart-ass ones who are in Science for no reason, and who wish to be accountants and businessmen when they grow up ...
They are such shallow faeces-heads! I dare not use the 4-letter word. I heard the math and physics genius say he wants to be a businessman to "MAKE LOTS OF MONEY!" I tell you i was as though a blow had been slapped on my face. So basically, we're in science for our cursed REPUTATIONS, are we not?
One top scorer went:"I feel I'm wasting my time studying science. I mean, I 'm not going to do it for a career."
And these people who do not lack grey matter are desrerrting science for BUSINESS!!! THat what is the point of staying here????
Even the TOP SCORER IS GOING TO BE AN ACCOUNTANT!!!
HOW IS THE FIELD OF SCIENCE GOING TO PROGRESS WITHOUT SUFFICIENT GENIUSES??? THEY ARE BETRAYERS!!! WE ARE GOING OT BECOME BARBARIANS. AND THEY'LL BE WASTING THEIR BRAINS ON MONEY AND NOT ACADEMIA!!!
Nowadays, many people who do science in uni are those who can't get other qualifications. Well, some of them. THe thing is science is an analystical subject. You need people with force, determination, intellect, logic. And science ppl take medicine or engineering. They are just conformists who may be to afariad to take othe specialised fields. I(f any of you are REALLY devoted to medicine I apologise. ) How about, say, microbiology? With non-geniuses taking the other science fields, it will not experience much reformation and discovery. And less popular.
Interest in science is declining. ppl are money-mad. they think they can be rich by being businessmen. Now the intellectual circle among young amateurs will decrease. Ppl will just learn conventional science instead of making new theories and discoveries. They won't learn to be philosophical and analytical and think for themselves. How will we have new ideas and reforms? How will we raise a generation of intellectuals? If science becomes unfashionable (it already is except for engineering) we will become shallow barbarians and half-civilised savages. And how will we start a Science Movement for Thinkers?

The trouble with the government is that it doesn't provide good teachers and subjects for businessman wannabes with high scores. THese wannabes are only shallow money-makers who have utterly no devotion to science or the Upper Intellect. Actually, they're animals - bad animals I mean - and cleverer too, only people are convinced that they are Superhumans. I beg to differ. They are just status crazy. THe gov is not much better by providing inept teachers for the so-called dumbo classes. If there were one or two GOOD arts classes, and they were presrigious those money-eyers would be rushing over there. It is un fair that they are good at physics or math when they have no intention to work in that field. THey study hard for some A's and poof! All gone. When some other course would suit them better. It's the prsetige of being a techie, you see. It's all about the name game.

The gov is science-mad with their silly machines and low-class technology. THey allocate more science classes for bio-haters. THey are real dummies. Science is intellectial, logical, for devoted ppl - you must reserve them for the best and the passionate. So the shallowness of top scorers is the gov's fault for saying arts is dumb.

If you are dedicated to the elevated field of Science, you are a revolutionist. I salute you. Feedback is welcome

I love literature, but it is an artistic science. Or a scientific Art. Ugh. Philosophy's confusing.